adieu !

 ...........there are times when you cannot say every thing in words.  You simply cannot tell.  There are so many things that I want to say.  But I cannot.  That may put me in some weird position.  I may lose out on my beautiful relationships that I built over time.  Its going to be tough this time.  If destined,  ............I am feeling very low now.  Probably this is right decision I took considering the way things are moving.............. 


I am signing off with very heavy heart. good bye my dear friend.  We will never be together again.

Long weekend

After a very hard fortnight, I got to have a long weekend of 3 days off.  But Vijay is not home. Sis dropped in with kids yesterday.  It was fun with kids at home. Their games, their fights, watching them growing its all so good but at times demanding also.  You just cannot stop them from fighting over silly things. Vijay called few minutes back and said he is coming back in a while.  Thank God.  It would have been difficult without him tonight and tomorrow.  My Ani feels very sad without him.  He missed him so much on Friday, he arranged few pillows and covered it with a blanket and said " mamma, it is daddy.  Now I won't miss him."  It was really touching.  I don't know why am so attached to him.  He is so embedded in my life, he is like my breath and the bonding I have with him subconsciously developed over years.  He is my anchor and mentor.  Is it real or a facade.  Is there something beyond all this ?  Is it some social norm that I need to confirm to ?   I don't know.