Good bye 2010!

Finally its time to say good bye to an eventful year.  It has been great.  Love all the experiences I went through. Met wonderful people.  I wish it would have been perfect, if  Vijay could be a bit nice to me.  I think I lost him. I  want him back.  But I think its not possible.  Next year, I don't know, what's in store for me.  I want to be strong. Want to be best Mom, Best daughter and Sister.  Wife part is over.  I broke good number of relationships in last few days.  Its been painful.  But I wish I compensate it with some meaningful things,by making myself more responsible, agile and understanding. There is only one thing I care about. I don't want Ani to missout on his father. I will always love you.  You will never understand me.
Coming to friends, I am going away from all of them. Mentally I am not able to associate with any one.  I want to be the best worker and best Mother.   Love you my little child. I am missing you too.  Lets meet tomorrow in New year in New Day light.

Love, Life and bunch of lies !!!!!!!!

These triple Ls are truth of life.  Love let u sail in the waters of life.  It guides you.  Life is hard rock. You need to mend it the way you want.  Last one is Lies.  It is essence of life.  To survive Lie.  Lie to yourself that you are wanted and you make positive difference to their lives.  It lets you live happily.
Am I sounding low ?????????????   Yes, I am.  Things are not right with me.  I want to come out of it.  I don't know how.

Down & out

The winter blues are back.  I get so tired and angry all the time.  There is some frustration which I cannot vent at any one.  I think I m getting raw deal.  Some times I feel am I being too honest with what I do and bearing the load of thankfulness and crushing myself underneath.  Some times I feel, I should come out of the closet and pour.  May be that will relieve me.  There is some strange thing.  I m being consumed in my jealousy.  I should not get affected by it.  But I am.  So what do I do now.  Shall I go back and bang or burn myself in my anger ?